In October my husband and I made one of our boldest choices that would soon impact our life beyond imaginable belief. See at the time the circumstances supported such a mountainous decision, but now as I look at life before me, I wonder, what the heck was I thinking?!
Life has a way of smacking you into reality with hind sight bias.
The decision that was best at the time, is so inconvenient now. To say the very least, I'm doing my best to remain a positive, happy and spirited influence for my children. I still empower them to do their and achieve their best, I still encourage them to reach for their goals, I still tell them right from wrong, while I cry on the inside at the confusion of life in which children are and should be oblivious to, it is life and life's reality, they'll never really know what we've endured to maintain life as they know it.
Just this morning my daughter came to me to have her papers signed, I was a bit disappointed because what I was signing wasn't completed (here it is Monday morning and she hadn't done her homework), and I barked at her first thing in the morning! Terrible, terrible me! I didn't think twice about it, until...
She left me the most sweetest note and I got all teary eyed, not only did my child acknowledge her mistake and took responsibility for it, she thanked me, she appreciated me and then took initiative to do something without my asking...Meanwhile, all I did was bark.
It really brings things into perspective and makes me think about everything I've done, said, wanted, needed and where I am right now, but if I do nothing else right in my life, and just love my children, teach them, guide, and lead the way to their success and achievement of their goals, then so be it, because they are the most important pieces of my life, my world, they're the reason, I fight the good fight of life.
So "Excuse me, I'm just not myself..." I'll be in and out of the "blogger-sphere", but I am still here, just trying to wrap my head around life while putting one foot in front of the other, without losing my mind!
Until Next Time,